Problem child

Sometimes,some phrase or words will inspire to post my blog. And as stated at my facebook status, "I used to be a problem child at age of 7, no change at all till now, I doubt".

Yes, check this which I still hardly forget about it:
1) Not sure is 7 or 8 years old, parents force me learn taekwando at school, hell yeah, instead of learning kungfu or whatever you call it, I didnt manage to fight anyone, but I learn to PONTENG, and hide in a smelly toilet to escape that boring fighting class, YEAH SMELLY TOILET. Shame, I know.

2) From 9 year old to 11 year old, inconsiderable parents again force me learn piano, fucking cb I really damn hate learning piano. I still recall at that time, while needed to attend piano lesson on Sat and Sun, I already started my swimming lesson every morning. And then, afternoon around 4pm, need to go "ccb" piano class. Everytime after finish swimming class, I'll go back home rest and sleep, when my mom wake me up at 3pm & nagging me go piano class, I just pretend SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP ZZZZ, cant wake up at all, and draggggg till 415. Hehe, ended kena diao by mom and ccb punya piano teacher.

3) At age of 11 and 12, is my most unforgetable moment, started to hate fucking chinese word because of a chinese teacher. (although at times i still type chinese word in my blog, because computer got "han yu ping yin" ma). My english is consider the best at that time, I love attend english class, I love the indian teacher, she always praise me for good command english and good grammer, & during quiz time I participate a lot.

But everything gone soooo damn wrong because of that DUA LAM PA VEGETARIAN CHINESE TEACHER. His fucking sohai name is "CHANG XI KUN" DUA LAM PA TEACHER. Already I know myself is a problem child, who likes to chit chat with friends sitting beside me in class, cubit girls, dont do homework, & late for school every morning. But this TUA LAM PA who declared himself a ^vegetarian^ & holly to god, really want to give him a slap and send him to god.

Ma chi bai him, is a bias person & anti guys, keep flirt with girls in class, ccb him, primary school girl also he want to flirt. Disgrace person. And always anti me for nothing, saying I'm a spoiled child because I'm being the only child at home. Cane me, bully me and make shame on me. And one day, he used a cane and cane into my face, leaving a scar(now no more d la). Parents saw, find him, and bring me along meet the principal.

Above is not an serious issue, I have my class picture with this fuck face teacher inside it, I make fool of him by drawing pig face on the pic and write fucker. Dad saw the picture, screw me, and cane me again for writing "fucker" at age of 12. FML.

There's a lot more in secondary school, a lot to write. But what I want to share at this blog is that, this is me, being problematic as always. People may dislike for many reason, but, I doing things what I should do, because I have right to fight what I want.

In P3 ACCA syllabus, BCG matrix says problem child have high growth but low market share, I doubt I am in this stage being potentially being a stars? hmm...lets see hows life progress. ;-)

I really wish someone is here with me

By Arvil Lavigne, her latest album, almost all her song nice, but the latest one, "wish you were here", is really DAMN DAMN DAMN,DAMN fit my feeling and appetite.

Yeah, I really wish one of my someone was here with me when I really needed.

But ar, it doesn't matter, just like Arvil lyric said "I can be tough,I can be strong"

Sometimes I really do feel tired of facing life, but each time when tired appears, alternately, it also reminds me of what dream I havent achieve yet, and makes me wake up and start facing it again and again. At times, false thinking tempted me to commit suicide, but my personnel tells me that I am really "Kia Si".

Life goes on, AGAIN.

Going for trip soon, reflex myself. ;-)

Inspiration to write

I tell truth FOR NOW. Does not mean the previous of my blog post was fake. Like me or unlike me, YOU CARE? Its my life.

THE TRUTH IS, THIS FRIDAY, is my SHITTY MAKE GOOD TEST aka resit mid term test.

THE UNTRUTH IS--> I am fucking relaxing now, & telling my reader, HELL YEAH, EXAM, WHAT? FAIL IT LAAA, DIUZZZ!!!

FACT IS: I AM VERY HAPPY WHEN:
1) I get out of my apartment & hang out with my friends.
2) I shut my book, mess my paper, and forget about it.
3) I enjoy the beer just now.
4) I only saw Smalling, Nani & Nani score....GOALLLLLLLLSSSS
5) I inhale 3 sticks of killer lolipop (I admited for now,because I'm happy)
6) I drive up and down from KL to Damansara, speeding 140km/h, potong here potong there
7) I back home and quickly start facebook and BLOGGING
8) I decided not to bath neither to wash my hair, because I'll look fugly at 8am later for lecturer for not styling my hair
9) I love crap, that why I'm not going to fuck Nani(i posted at fb saying i gonna f him)
10)I wanna work.
11)I STFU AND TALK TALKING TO BLOG.

SAD CASE IS:
1) FML
2) FML ATTEND LECTURER LATER
3) FML CANT FOCUS STUDY
4) FML FEELING ANNOYED WITH ALL THE PAPER ON MY TABLE
5) JUST FML OK?

There is something in our life, which we think what is worth to spend, I mean, different people, have different type of attitude spending on certain things. The things you like to spend, does not mean others will like. Others may feel you are wasting money on this and that, but that does not mean your spending policy is FUCKING RIGHT? Most importantly is, how you spend and makes yourself happy.

For me,
1) Its worth I drive more 100km to just meet my Banana gang, whether its just yam cha, pek jao or whatever it is.
2) Its worth to spend RM80 occasionally on buffet with my college mate.
3) Its worth to dump RM30++ to drink beer, at least it makes me calm out of my stress study life
4) Its very worth, when I able to save an amount of money, and reward myself BRANDED.

I care, sincerely, I dont have a girlfriend now like some of my friend, I have no chance to spend on a her. I cant share my feeling with her. Most importantly, I know, I wont sacrifice (for now) to spend on chasing a girl, drive her up and down, buy her luxurious bag, date her occasionally or buy her a condom for me to wear(crap). To make me feel better, I do all the above FACTS as part of my life.

I'm just human, not superman. ;-(


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When words cant speak, music sings

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Look What I've Done

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3 month, time just pass like that by totally drying up my blog for 3 month.

"Look what I've done now",my blog theme, its time to be refresh once more

Many things does happen for the past 3 month:
May 1-15: By tracing back my schedule, I am still having my semester break. Well, this time around I was not that busy managing my freelance job. Well, not much of job were being offered at that time. NOT UNTIL May 9 onwards.

May 9 onwards: Yeah, peak period was pecking up ever since my college day restart. As usual, sometimes life is sooo unfair for me. When I damn fucking free, the job just wont comes to me. But, when college restart, all earning opportunity come all the way.

To share about what I have gone through from May 9 onward until today, it was like a long piece of cloth to be cut(a direct translate of chinese idiom).

To summarise everything, THIS YEAR IS NOT MY YEAR. What goes up, always comes down. There's no smooth flow at all for me. Is like, when I achieve this, alternately, I losing out the others. Worst come to worst, I fail my mid term exam, yes, I FAIL. I FUCKING FAIL IT. "LOOK WHAT I'VE DONE" to my life.

Honestly, I'm lost, I cant turn back, I can only move front, but I dont know where to go. Everything on me is on jeopardy. I know, I really know, I will lose up everything if I keep continue the way I'm doing now. But, I'm not willing to give up everything I have, I'm greed, I want graduation and I definitely want my part time career as well. Yes, I'm greed, very greed. I want this, I want that, I want everything. And I almost lost everything soon, its only matter of time.

I have plan on my head, trying to minimize whatever loss I could possibly incurred. But, I dared not implement it. It has to take a lot of courage, lots of endurance and lots of risk as well. All I must do and only able to do now, is to carry on, praying very hard that everything please go on the way I wish for, dont go against me.

This is about my life, my right and wrong, my decison and my consequences. You may laugh out loud on me, but, someday you'll realize, you just have to experience any of your ups and down.

2 happiest moment I have enjoy through for my past 3 month is:

1st--> The sillyness activities with Banana Gang Kawan. We club, we out, we yam cha, we shops, we spot the MILF, we hunt dog, we even hunt ghost, we mastermind sex toy business and even the chicken ducky investment(wtf), we boombastic each other, we drink and I drunk and you guys make fun on me(fuck u all la,lol) and ofcoz we always FUCK EACH OTHER(we scold fuck, not the lan jiao chap sit fat punya fuck,lol).





2nd--> The holiday trip, the job at office and the meals with Baboos family. Although is not a perfect trip at Penang, but at least we do enjoy ourselves, taking pics, at least they make me more united to them(actually influence me become more pat poh,lol). They name me ella because of my umbrella hair, I thank them for helping and cooperate with me during working time, appreciate their effort very much. And we always go for lunch either at Mac d or face to face pan mee, and not forget, I always being bad by banned their plan for Tao Buffet and ended got RAPE by "SEI LOU YEH" who always change change change, baboo baboo baboo, and bla bla bla ==",haha.




[How I realy wish everything just goes happily, steadily, smoothly and wonderfully. But real life says NO. Life is fair or unfair,I dont know. I know everything happens for a reason.]


[Yes, I want to be naive, think like a kid, and toy like a kid, "SIMPLE". I believe I am right now, only to be naive ;-(]

简单到来不简单

再看这我的部落客的人，对以上的照片有印象吗？对，这幅画就是来之“初恋红豆冰”的女主角李心洁

再这套戏里，故事片断真的很简单，对话不多，动作也没多，但，戏里想带来的感觉和味道都来得很好。

很不好意思，我刚刚才欣赏。或许有点迟，但，终算没错过。

这部戏，带给了我一个意义，那就是，爱可以很简单。

再看这套戏时，带来的感觉就是，hmmmm,its very relaxing,simple and touch.

哈哈，我甚至还想把自己投入再戏里，把自己变成戏里的“BOTAK”.

Botak，再这戏里，就是，那么的简单，某某的，静静的，傻傻的爱李心洁。

他不像别的爱情片，为对方付出，牺牲，或爱得要生要死。（One word for all, this movie is SIMPLE)

很多事，不是说简单就好。如果，我真的能像这部戏里，对人对事都来得简简单单，那该很好吧！

今天，有一位好友对我说：
W：wei,你整天忙做工，找一个女朋友啦。
我：目前，事业与爱情，我选择事业。对我而言，没有女朋友或爱情，我不在意。但，要我放弃事业和金钱，我会痛苦。
W:lol,介绍你C吧！（相识友)。
我（话）：最好不要
（脑）：可以考录
（心）：没那么简单，最好不要

如果懂得欣赏我的人，会觉得我做事很认真，不懂我的人，会觉得我很闷。
了解我的人，会觉得我原来不踏实。
而我会认为我自己是个头脑没那么简单的人。

有些事，很容易，我会把它看得很复杂。简单的事，我却不会想理。

我是个很materialistic的人，对人对事都不会来的简单。很多时候，都想过要简简单单的过日子，可是现实上，我是应该望上爬，不停的达到目标。也许会有那么一天我会安定下来，过得简简单单，也许就是死的那一天吧！;-D

所以，我真的很想找一个和我有共同点的伴。不过，人生不比戏来得那么简单。所谓“戏如人生，但人生不如戏来的完美”。

很谢谢懂得欣赏我的人，也很遗憾不喜欢我的人。人各有份，就是看您能判我几分！

I was born this way

I have tasted:
1)Leffe
2)Hoeegarden
3)and today Kilkenny

Addicted to bear? Probably. I think I just wants to get myself drunk and enjoy the night with noisy music.

Silly? Probably as well. I'm unhappy, this is how makes me better at least, just get drunk and sleep drunkly for the night.

I just wants to do the things I love to do now, without bothering the feelings of important person care for me so much. Even if I'm doing the right things, the important person will still wont feel proud and never encourage me to do better and better. And if I'm doing the wrong things, mumbling starts all over my ear.

Why do they have to demand me to live the way they are. Its my life but they ended saying they give lives to me. And so, I have to hold back so many things. Even if I'm doing, I feel uncomfortable because I have to care for theirs feeling. I dont meant to be rude but I always carrying a responsibility to live my life. When I was young, I was not taught to be a courage winner, but to be a coward follower. And now, I still yet to win because I still carry these philosophy. If people think I'm being unappreciate, I think I am. I realize how much I have change to become a selfish person. And by following the quotes of "I have to be cruel to others to be kind to myself".

Oh well, still the same, life move on. I was born this way!

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