Problem child

Sometimes,some phrase or words will inspire to post my blog. And as stated at my facebook status, "I used to be a problem child at age of 7, no change at all till now, I doubt".

Yes, check this which I still hardly forget about it:
1) Not sure is 7 or 8 years old, parents force me learn taekwando at school, hell yeah, instead of learning kungfu or whatever you call it, I didnt manage to fight anyone, but I learn to PONTENG, and hide in a smelly toilet to escape that boring fighting class, YEAH SMELLY TOILET. Shame, I know.

2) From 9 year old to 11 year old, inconsiderable parents again force me learn piano, fucking cb I really damn hate learning piano. I still recall at that time, while needed to attend piano lesson on Sat and Sun, I already started my swimming lesson every morning. And then, afternoon around 4pm, need to go "ccb" piano class. Everytime after finish swimming class, I'll go back home rest and sleep, when my mom wake me up at 3pm & nagging me go piano class, I just pretend SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP ZZZZ, cant wake up at all, and draggggg till 415. Hehe, ended kena diao by mom and ccb punya piano teacher.

3) At age of 11 and 12, is my most unforgetable moment, started to hate fucking chinese word because of a chinese teacher. (although at times i still type chinese word in my blog, because computer got "han yu ping yin" ma). My english is consider the best at that time, I love attend english class, I love the indian teacher, she always praise me for good command english and good grammer, & during quiz time I participate a lot.

But everything gone soooo damn wrong because of that DUA LAM PA VEGETARIAN CHINESE TEACHER. His fucking sohai name is "CHANG XI KUN" DUA LAM PA TEACHER. Already I know myself is a problem child, who likes to chit chat with friends sitting beside me in class, cubit girls, dont do homework, & late for school every morning. But this TUA LAM PA who declared himself a ^vegetarian^ & holly to god, really want to give him a slap and send him to god.

Ma chi bai him, is a bias person & anti guys, keep flirt with girls in class, ccb him, primary school girl also he want to flirt. Disgrace person. And always anti me for nothing, saying I'm a spoiled child because I'm being the only child at home. Cane me, bully me and make shame on me. And one day, he used a cane and cane into my face, leaving a scar(now no more d la). Parents saw, find him, and bring me along meet the principal.

Above is not an serious issue, I have my class picture with this fuck face teacher inside it, I make fool of him by drawing pig face on the pic and write fucker. Dad saw the picture, screw me, and cane me again for writing "fucker" at age of 12. FML.

There's a lot more in secondary school, a lot to write. But what I want to share at this blog is that, this is me, being problematic as always. People may dislike for many reason, but, I doing things what I should do, because I have right to fight what I want.

In P3 ACCA syllabus, BCG matrix says problem child have high growth but low market share, I doubt I am in this stage being potentially being a stars? hmm...lets see hows life progress. ;-)

I really wish someone is here with me

By Arvil Lavigne, her latest album, almost all her song nice, but the latest one, "wish you were here", is really DAMN DAMN DAMN,DAMN fit my feeling and appetite.

Yeah, I really wish one of my someone was here with me when I really needed.

But ar, it doesn't matter, just like Arvil lyric said "I can be tough,I can be strong"

Sometimes I really do feel tired of facing life, but each time when tired appears, alternately, it also reminds me of what dream I havent achieve yet, and makes me wake up and start facing it again and again. At times, false thinking tempted me to commit suicide, but my personnel tells me that I am really "Kia Si".

Life goes on, AGAIN.

Going for trip soon, reflex myself. ;-)

Inspiration to write

I tell truth FOR NOW. Does not mean the previous of my blog post was fake. Like me or unlike me, YOU CARE? Its my life.

THE TRUTH IS, THIS FRIDAY, is my SHITTY MAKE GOOD TEST aka resit mid term test.

THE UNTRUTH IS--> I am fucking relaxing now, & telling my reader, HELL YEAH, EXAM, WHAT? FAIL IT LAAA, DIUZZZ!!!

FACT IS: I AM VERY HAPPY WHEN:
1) I get out of my apartment & hang out with my friends.
2) I shut my book, mess my paper, and forget about it.
3) I enjoy the beer just now.
4) I only saw Smalling, Nani & Nani score....GOALLLLLLLLSSSS
5) I inhale 3 sticks of killer lolipop (I admited for now,because I'm happy)
6) I drive up and down from KL to Damansara, speeding 140km/h, potong here potong there
7) I back home and quickly start facebook and BLOGGING
8) I decided not to bath neither to wash my hair, because I'll look fugly at 8am later for lecturer for not styling my hair
9) I love crap, that why I'm not going to fuck Nani(i posted at fb saying i gonna f him)
10)I wanna work.
11)I STFU AND TALK TALKING TO BLOG.

SAD CASE IS:
1) FML
2) FML ATTEND LECTURER LATER
3) FML CANT FOCUS STUDY
4) FML FEELING ANNOYED WITH ALL THE PAPER ON MY TABLE
5) JUST FML OK?

There is something in our life, which we think what is worth to spend, I mean, different people, have different type of attitude spending on certain things. The things you like to spend, does not mean others will like. Others may feel you are wasting money on this and that, but that does not mean your spending policy is FUCKING RIGHT? Most importantly is, how you spend and makes yourself happy.

For me,
1) Its worth I drive more 100km to just meet my Banana gang, whether its just yam cha, pek jao or whatever it is.
2) Its worth to spend RM80 occasionally on buffet with my college mate.
3) Its worth to dump RM30++ to drink beer, at least it makes me calm out of my stress study life
4) Its very worth, when I able to save an amount of money, and reward myself BRANDED.

I care, sincerely, I dont have a girlfriend now like some of my friend, I have no chance to spend on a her. I cant share my feeling with her. Most importantly, I know, I wont sacrifice (for now) to spend on chasing a girl, drive her up and down, buy her luxurious bag, date her occasionally or buy her a condom for me to wear(crap). To make me feel better, I do all the above FACTS as part of my life.

I'm just human, not superman. ;-(


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When words cant speak, music sings

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Look What I've Done

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3 month, time just pass like that by totally drying up my blog for 3 month.

"Look what I've done now",my blog theme, its time to be refresh once more

Many things does happen for the past 3 month:
May 1-15: By tracing back my schedule, I am still having my semester break. Well, this time around I was not that busy managing my freelance job. Well, not much of job were being offered at that time. NOT UNTIL May 9 onwards.

May 9 onwards: Yeah, peak period was pecking up ever since my college day restart. As usual, sometimes life is sooo unfair for me. When I damn fucking free, the job just wont comes to me. But, when college restart, all earning opportunity come all the way.

To share about what I have gone through from May 9 onward until today, it was like a long piece of cloth to be cut(a direct translate of chinese idiom).

To summarise everything, THIS YEAR IS NOT MY YEAR. What goes up, always comes down. There's no smooth flow at all for me. Is like, when I achieve this, alternately, I losing out the others. Worst come to worst, I fail my mid term exam, yes, I FAIL. I FUCKING FAIL IT. "LOOK WHAT I'VE DONE" to my life.

Honestly, I'm lost, I cant turn back, I can only move front, but I dont know where to go. Everything on me is on jeopardy. I know, I really know, I will lose up everything if I keep continue the way I'm doing now. But, I'm not willing to give up everything I have, I'm greed, I want graduation and I definitely want my part time career as well. Yes, I'm greed, very greed. I want this, I want that, I want everything. And I almost lost everything soon, its only matter of time.

I have plan on my head, trying to minimize whatever loss I could possibly incurred. But, I dared not implement it. It has to take a lot of courage, lots of endurance and lots of risk as well. All I must do and only able to do now, is to carry on, praying very hard that everything please go on the way I wish for, dont go against me.

This is about my life, my right and wrong, my decison and my consequences. You may laugh out loud on me, but, someday you'll realize, you just have to experience any of your ups and down.

2 happiest moment I have enjoy through for my past 3 month is:

1st--> The sillyness activities with Banana Gang Kawan. We club, we out, we yam cha, we shops, we spot the MILF, we hunt dog, we even hunt ghost, we mastermind sex toy business and even the chicken ducky investment(wtf), we boombastic each other, we drink and I drunk and you guys make fun on me(fuck u all la,lol) and ofcoz we always FUCK EACH OTHER(we scold fuck, not the lan jiao chap sit fat punya fuck,lol).





2nd--> The holiday trip, the job at office and the meals with Baboos family. Although is not a perfect trip at Penang, but at least we do enjoy ourselves, taking pics, at least they make me more united to them(actually influence me become more pat poh,lol). They name me ella because of my umbrella hair, I thank them for helping and cooperate with me during working time, appreciate their effort very much. And we always go for lunch either at Mac d or face to face pan mee, and not forget, I always being bad by banned their plan for Tao Buffet and ended got RAPE by "SEI LOU YEH" who always change change change, baboo baboo baboo, and bla bla bla ==",haha.




[How I realy wish everything just goes happily, steadily, smoothly and wonderfully. But real life says NO. Life is fair or unfair,I dont know. I know everything happens for a reason.]


[Yes, I want to be naive, think like a kid, and toy like a kid, "SIMPLE". I believe I am right now, only to be naive ;-(]

简单到来不简单

再看这我的部落客的人，对以上的照片有印象吗？对，这幅画就是来之“初恋红豆冰”的女主角李心洁

再这套戏里，故事片断真的很简单，对话不多，动作也没多，但，戏里想带来的感觉和味道都来得很好。

很不好意思，我刚刚才欣赏。或许有点迟，但，终算没错过。

这部戏，带给了我一个意义，那就是，爱可以很简单。

再看这套戏时，带来的感觉就是，hmmmm,its very relaxing,simple and touch.

哈哈，我甚至还想把自己投入再戏里，把自己变成戏里的“BOTAK”.

Botak，再这戏里，就是，那么的简单，某某的，静静的，傻傻的爱李心洁。

他不像别的爱情片，为对方付出，牺牲，或爱得要生要死。（One word for all, this movie is SIMPLE)

很多事，不是说简单就好。如果，我真的能像这部戏里，对人对事都来得简简单单，那该很好吧！

今天，有一位好友对我说：
W：wei,你整天忙做工，找一个女朋友啦。
我：目前，事业与爱情，我选择事业。对我而言，没有女朋友或爱情，我不在意。但，要我放弃事业和金钱，我会痛苦。
W:lol,介绍你C吧！（相识友)。
我（话）：最好不要
（脑）：可以考录
（心）：没那么简单，最好不要

如果懂得欣赏我的人，会觉得我做事很认真，不懂我的人，会觉得我很闷。
了解我的人，会觉得我原来不踏实。
而我会认为我自己是个头脑没那么简单的人。

有些事，很容易，我会把它看得很复杂。简单的事，我却不会想理。

我是个很materialistic的人，对人对事都不会来的简单。很多时候，都想过要简简单单的过日子，可是现实上，我是应该望上爬，不停的达到目标。也许会有那么一天我会安定下来，过得简简单单，也许就是死的那一天吧！;-D

所以，我真的很想找一个和我有共同点的伴。不过，人生不比戏来得那么简单。所谓“戏如人生，但人生不如戏来的完美”。

很谢谢懂得欣赏我的人，也很遗憾不喜欢我的人。人各有份，就是看您能判我几分！

I was born this way

I have tasted:
1)Leffe
2)Hoeegarden
3)and today Kilkenny

Addicted to bear? Probably. I think I just wants to get myself drunk and enjoy the night with noisy music.

Silly? Probably as well. I'm unhappy, this is how makes me better at least, just get drunk and sleep drunkly for the night.

I just wants to do the things I love to do now, without bothering the feelings of important person care for me so much. Even if I'm doing the right things, the important person will still wont feel proud and never encourage me to do better and better. And if I'm doing the wrong things, mumbling starts all over my ear.

Why do they have to demand me to live the way they are. Its my life but they ended saying they give lives to me. And so, I have to hold back so many things. Even if I'm doing, I feel uncomfortable because I have to care for theirs feeling. I dont meant to be rude but I always carrying a responsibility to live my life. When I was young, I was not taught to be a courage winner, but to be a coward follower. And now, I still yet to win because I still carry these philosophy. If people think I'm being unappreciate, I think I am. I realize how much I have change to become a selfish person. And by following the quotes of "I have to be cruel to others to be kind to myself".

Oh well, still the same, life move on. I was born this way!

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MONDAY (NOT) BLUE

People always say, MONDAY BLUE, but for me and maybe only for this coming Monday:

I CANT WAIT FOR MONDAY TO ARRIVE!!!

WHY?

IF YOU THINK I'M CRAZY, I MA GONNA TELL YOU MONDAY WILL BE A MORE HAPPIER DAY THAN MY 21st BIRTHDAY ON SATURDAY.

My opportunity to work has finally arise. A BIG THANK YOU TO MR **, THIS IS THE GREATEST PRESENT I RECEIVE THIS YEAR PRIOR TO MY BIRTHDAY.

Look, I ma WORKHOLIC, I've been stuck in my house from mid of Jan until today, look, its been 1 month I'm jobless while some of friends already has gone for their interns. And now, opportunity come again. Wooohoooo

Question from readers is: Why I dont go for interns then instead of stucking in the house? Well, its because I dont want to stuck in the office 5 days a week, 8 hours ++ a day and doing things I dont wish to do. Yes, its working in an audit firm. I dont want to stuck in the office and sitting on the table facing so manyyyy unfigurable figure. (Although I'm studying Accounting now!!!)

Well, I shall work as freelance instead. So whats so great about my job? Well, frankly, its not great at all in my opinion, because I'm aiming to do a greater and perfect event each time I'm involve. I'm not really doing a full event management job, but it consist mixture of event, marketing and logistic job. Wauu, 3 in 1 job? Come on, my friends out there, you all are doing 3 in 1 job as well = Audit + Tax + Account. Just cut it short, everyone has their own job, do your best and mind your own business, you look great with what you are doing. ;-)

Yeah, just got a call from my superior, inquire me to go for briefing on Monday. It means, I ma get myself busy soon? Hopefully, and still praying hard now that my superiors will grant me more project to do. And, not forget, its not only me who get this opportunity, but its can also involve a lot of others too.

I shall announce one of my birthday wish here, which I always make 3 wishes during my birthday which is "wishing that my this years career opportunity will run smooth and more jobs will be grant."

The other 2, hmm, I keep for myself..;-DDDD

单身情人节

情人节啊情人节，干吗要有这个节日呢？

如果情人们都是相爱的，每一天都是情人节啦。好啦，我也蛮惨的，还是得说一些自我安慰的话。又得一个人过情人节。年年都是风雨不改，一个人度过。

没变，缘分没到，不能勉强。所以，我只好再家，好好的睡大觉。lol。然后呢，我要motivate自己温习FR.成绩没出，我就知道会败了，因为当时的我，已经放弃了这张paper。

过了三个礼拜，都很期待她的出现再msn,不过，都没有啦。算了吧，只好在等奇迹出现？

不想多写了，祝各位情人节快乐。:-)

My Most Wanted Player(MVP=MWP)

Li Na:
First of all, I like her because she has a sexy tatoo at her chest. Lolzz. Call me pervert if you think so.

Well, honestly, I admire her is because she's a great fighter in tennis.

Surprisingly, yesterday which is 30/1/2011, she become the first Asian player to reach the Australian Open, however, she ended losing to Kim Clijster. I dont want to know whether she's playing good or bad, but I know that at least she's better than Maria Sharapova(beauty is a liar),so called former No 1.

Look, at least she try her best to play. I know others players do train as well, but I can feel, she's really good.

Jose Mourinho
There should be 60% population in the world hates him? But I still love him. Because he is worth to be ARROGANT. Unlike some par liar people, pretend to be ARROGANT but being nothing at all.

Yes, this man may be hatters to some, but why people wants to put the blame on him just because he showing off his achievement? He is born to be a winner. What you people can show off? Your winning ass being fuck by a cock?

Well, I may sounds rude, but I'm just voicing my opinion. Look at this GREAT JOSE MOURINHO. You people got to show respect to him whether or not you hate him. He is the best football manager in the world although there maybe the likes of Sir Alex Ferguson, Kenny Daglish, Pep Guordiola and etc.

Most importantly, to be a successful manager, in my opinion, he/she got to be a great motivator. Look how Jose motivates and manage his players. Look at the style he has each time his players score goals and winning the match. Look, this man just have the style. Come on, this is how a managers should motivates their people.

Kobe Bryant
He just cant stop scoring points. He just cant stop influencing his team. He just cant stop pushing to the limit. And he just cant stop playing like an all star.

Ever since I started play basketball, he is my man to watch. How much to describe him? Just watch him at NBA, thats all.

Well, I have mine own MVP, I'm sure my readers do have their own as well. In life, you got to admire someone valuable, someone who can guide you to success and someone who you can copy them and paste it to yourself. Learn those icon who is success, perhaps you maybe more success than them one day.

Francisco Bustamante
He? He's not world No 1 or unbeatable player.

I like him just because I think he has great skill in placing pools. Nothing much else to describe him.

想要女朋友而女朋友，并不是爱情

这是关于某个她，一个永远不知道的她：
我懂了她
她不让眼泪落下
所以让爱结束在最美刹那
她的眼里进了沙
她算了吧
够了吧
不要再苦苦挣扎

我是以朋友的心情关心某个她，她不是我的女朋友，也没成为过我的女朋友。
其实，一之以来，都很想留意她的点点滴滴，不过，都因为
1：没时间
2：不想理会太多
3：不管我的事
4：就算知道了，又能怎样？
所以，才不想关心她的事。

直到最近，可能太无聊得空了吧，才无端端想kepo她的点点滴滴。
当初，有想过想追求她。但，到了今天，我还是一直认为，我和她是真的两个世界的人。I'm from Mars, and she an ordinary girl living on earth. If I ever come to look for her, not only I'll causing her die, the whole world will crush at the same time.
所以吗，我和她是得保持一段距离。

如果，我是说如果，我和她真的在一起，我只不过是当她是“想要女朋友而女朋友的情人”，不是爱情。这是真的吗?哈哈，矛盾吧？不过，也没关系啦，保持原状，就不会有问题的出现。我最近已近够烦了。连自己都快照顾不了了，我拿什么条件管心她人？

我好像有花心吧？没错，我就是。我敢做敢当。我不怕人批评我，只怕你没资格批评。
谁不想寂寞时，有爱人陪
谁不想快乐时，有爱人一起分享
谁不想伤心是，有爱人一起分担
有谁不想要爱情？就算再强，也得有个依靠，不是吗？因为大家都是人，都有脆弱的一面。

她的点点滴滴，我都知道了。希望，她能熬过这一关吧！加油。

献给她这些歌词，希望你能明白歌词里的意识，慢慢的过得更好：

1：亲爱的，那不叫爱情
太美的承诺因为太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情

2：没那么简单
相爱没有那麼容易 每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪 轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那麼容易 才会特别让人著迷
什麼都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心 所以最开心 曾经

3：哭过就好了
哭过就好了 痛都会走的
记忆有限 所以它会淘汰坏的
失眠听歌 想念虽然苦涩
还是谢谢你让我长大了

4：谢谢你的爱
谢谢你给我的爱
现在我才看清楚
彼此曾经受过伤
时间里烟消云散
在情多变的路上
也许我只是个小孩
把想要对你说的话
埋藏在心中最深的地方

Ba-La-Ca trip & recommended cake

Just done a 2 days trip with so called Ex-G7 classmate. Lolz. Only 5 of them knows what I meant. Its kinda exhausted due to the HOT WEATHER, but its great and fun to enjoy a trip. As usual, when we were at malacca, places to visit and makan will be
1. Satay celup, either you go for ban lee heong or capitol
2. Makan nasi ayam la, sek kai fan. Its at jonker street
3. Tour around jonker street and red house.
4. Visit dataran pahlawan mall (I know sounds odd where you can just go shopping at kl mall instead at dataran pahlawan, well look at my below cake picture, then you'll know the reason to visit Dataran Pahlawan mall)


This is the layer cake I would love to mention at my blog today. This cafe is located at Dataran Pahlawan Mall, cafe name is known as Nadeje. Well, as far as I know, its rarely you get to eat this kind of layer cake at klang valley area. To me, I really rarely eat cake. But after I taste this layer cake, one word, nice. Why? To me, I love sweet and salty, but this cake is not really that sweet, its cheese is not too salty as well, overall taste is just neutral to me, ngam ngam nice. Bared in mind, I really rarely eat cake, and I can say among all the cakes I have eaten, this is one of the best, is better than secret recipe or any other cake. Well, this is my opinion, different people will have different type of mouth. Haha. Readers, when you have chance touring Malacca, this is one of the must try dessert. And price is quite affordable as well with nice environment.

Before I end my post today, I would like to share you readers a new Music Video from
黄小琥 - 重来


每一首歌，都有它的意识来表达个人的生活上度过的点点滴滴。其实，有时候，心里想的重来，和现实上的重来，永远来得不一样。

我个人看法是，我不会选择重来，因为我不想当伤害者或是受害者。终是觉得，人是得往前看，相信明天会更好。

Life fark tup (time of my life)

They said, you have a life now, live it hard, or you die harder. And so, I already live it hard now and believing that I will die very very very HARDERRRR someday!!!

I dont know what the fark is life to me now. I lost direction, I lost my soul and I gonna lost my brain soon. I always know that I'm a loser, but I never predict that, until today, I dont know what the fark I want about my life.

I only know that, I want to stop study, get my ass off to work. Please, I really damn farking hate study. I know study is not the factor that turn my life soo shit now, but, without study, even though life could be fark tup, yet, it wont be as harsh as now. God please forsaken me for being such messy now. Can you please help me settle down my life now. I know I sound silly begging you here at my blog, but if you already read my message and my mind, please tell me whats tomorrow in my dream. Can you?

Arggh, recently already brain wash by night life. Its already at the peak limit. Yet, I feel excited and relieve each time I went, I feel, this is not a life that I want, but at least it takes off my stress and pain. Do you people know how sorrow I feel? How heavy I have a backpack to carry? How much burden I have to bared? How much hate I have on a particular person? How much freedom I really want to have? shittsss.

And damn, I dont have a new year resolution, at least last time I planned, now, I dont know what lies ahead of me. Arghhhhhh!!!!fark tup. Well below shows my recent lifestyle.



(I wanna be a nerd in the bar, not in the school.lol)


(Bottoms ups, nahhh, just a bit oni)


(Me and the nooby jeremy ;-D)

What goes around comes around, I believe in karma. Life? haiyyyyyy!!!